New Year Resolutions

I have been asked by many people if I have any resolutions for 2009. I have told them all no because I will not follow through on resolutions made at the beginning of the year. So instead of resolutions that I am making because of the new year, I have decided to start things a little early. My goals are things that I have wanted to accomplish for awhile but have been too unmotivated to do anything about. I have realized that I need to live for myself.

I started Weight Watchers approximately 15 weeks ago. I have had success, and to noone's fault but my own, I have started to gain the weight. I blame it on the holiday's but I know that it is because of the choices that I have made. So no more making excuses. I am going to dedicate this year to making changes in my life. To start, my first weight loss goal is to lose 50 lbs by May 21, 2009. I go on a cruise to Mexico from May 24 - May 31. No more excuses or this goal will not be feasible.

I have too much clutter in my apartment and my life. I have started cleaning out my spare room and organizing my scrapbooking items. I have realized that I need to start using them more, or it will all go to waste. So my goal for my scrapbooking is use stuff before I go out and buy it. Also, I need to go through all of my other things, and see what I really need, and what I am holding onto for sentimental reasons. It is easy to go through life holding on to things that you have no control over any more. There are times when I wonder why I have not let go. I need to start letting go of things. This includes people that I have been holding onto and know that they are no longer a part of my life.

By the end of the year, I would like to be in a relationship. I am 25 years old, and am not getting any younger. I wish I just had someone to come home to and tell my problems to. Yes, I have friends, and I have family, but it is not the same as having a significant other. I want the intimacy of a relationship. I have decided that I am ready to settle down. I want to have a family, and I am not getting any younger. I have come to the realization that I am probably not going to change by becoming more modern. I realize that I still expect the guy to take the first move, even though I fall for guys that are shy about taking the first step. I know that I need to be brave. But being brave about this means that i have to let myself be put into the position where I may possibly get hurt. That scares me a lot. I have been hurt so many times in my life, I am not sure if I can put myself in that position. I guess I need to try, or this goal will not be fulfilled.

I am hoping to continue blogging on a normal basis.